RIGHT DIRECTION

Im bringing things back in the right direction I think. Last couple of days were good-ish!
Went to the gym and walked for 30 straight minutes. Stretched and lifted weights for a few mins too. Not too shabby.
Food wise, did ok mostly, made Koki - in ghee - that probably cost me a million calories.
Went to a 1st birthday party today to an Indian Restaurant. Although I was VERY GOOD with the food, ate tiny portions, 2 spoons of dessert, drank water etc - I still think, it cost a lot in calories. Water under the bridge.

So much went through my mind at the party. All these couples (probably in their twenties but act like uncles and aunties, it amazes me!) with kids. They were kids with kids and happy, gleeful, in that existence. I was by myself and stood out like a sore thumb. No hubby on my arm (cos he was busy! not because I dont have one :D) and no kids (coz I dont have any yet) and awfully awkward amongst these people. I dont know what to talk to them, I dont like the segregation of women and men on seperate tables, and I dont like not having common subjects to talk about. But I played my part, I tried to care about things, just wasnt for me. Oh well, Im happy being this weirdo, I dont really see myself being one of them. Happy in my solitude......

More later, hoping for a good week.

OH BTW, I weighed in at 163 lbs at the gym yesterday. There is your baseline.